“If I should fall behind”

Springsteen performed this song on his Live in Dublin album, and it has haunted me since I heard it.  It is about a couple moving through life and their fear that one or the other would slow down–would the other slow down to match, or would each move on alone?  My partner of thirty years is in the process of dying–slowing down daily–and I am his caregiver with the strong support of Hospice.  It is hard, slowing to his pace, knowing that no matter how much I try to match his pace through life, I will soon be moving on by myself.  In Melissa Etheridge’s voice, I will be “down to one”.  At this point, I cannot say whether it is he or me who is falling behind.

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